Where's your ring?

I DON'T EVEN HAVE A RING.

There isn't a proposal...yet. But you say you're getting married? Okay, my boyfriend is real ha. Pero here's the thing about our 'wedding':

We just talked about it. No concrete plans yet. Basta we know, we love each other, and we want to get married as soon as we can, and next year sounds like a good time.

Earlier this year, we broke up. We got back together in May 2011. And that's when we talked about our plans.

I'm not expecting a proposal. Don't get me wrong. Deep inside my heart, I'd like one. But, you see, my boyfriend is not the sweetest guy in the world. He never even gave me flowers. So I'm not expecting that taken-out-of-a-Hollywood-film kind of proposal. I just know, based from my personal experience, that expecting big gets you nowhere. And when he tries to propose, and it's not something grand, then it's not something I can be proud of (unless the ring is very expensive and beautiful). I don't want a sucky retelling of how I got the proposal. I would feel ashamed to tell people, "Oh, he proposed when we were eating burgers! How sweet!"

Call me crazy. If it's not something I can be proud to tell everyone (my future kids included), then I don't want it at all. Please tell me you understand.

It's more of a self-conditioning just so I won't end up disappointed and hurt.

Please hunny, just give me my ring.